having FUN with LIFE

Saturday, July 29, 2006

i am over at hairie's place now. fauzi having delima practice with hairie, omar and yed for a show tomorrow. so being the bored me, here i am finally updating my blog. bila lagi kan??

we're going for the ndp preview today since we can't get tickets to the real thing. he was able to get tickets for today from his friend. well, this is my first ndp preview. i only went to the real thing twice in my entire life. it is even more difficult to get tickets for ndp ever since the ballot system was implemented. oh well, more to come perhaps though not anymore at the stadium. can't believe it'll be torn down. it is, after all, part of singapore's history. guess it'll be a 'was' now.

should i cut my hair? truthfully, i am getting totally irritated by it now. my babies just love to pull my hair till it comes off!! sheesh... and it's difficult to scold them for it when they become so innocent and cute, knowing they had done something wrong. what to do? they are not my children but i love them like they are my own. it is just so easy to love them when they love you back unconditionally just for caring and looking after their needs. that's the main reason why i love my job. they look up to me(not just for the reason they are literally smaller than me) like their own family and shower me with all the smiles, kisses and hugs they can offer. all this coming from a small little being with the purest of hearts.

anyway, i'll be having a bbq on the 5th of august at East Coast Park at bbq pit 30. kiera darling, i expect you there... ok???? can??? come lah k!!! hehe... anybody else who knows me and wishes to come down, do email me at hani_darlz_bunny@hotmail.com. i'll give you my contact number then. as to reason why i am having a bbq, it's just for the fun of it. hehehe.. and also for my 2nd year anniversary with my special love. i'll be sharing this celebration with my two other friends who are collaborating with me in celebration of their birthdays. as they say, the more the merrier..

will try to update when i can ok people? in the meantime, enjoy your weekend and smile always. you'd never know who'll end up falling for that smile of yours... ;)

cheers!

7/29/2006 02:22:00 PM

(0) comments Sunday, July 09, 2006

my my... such "wonderful" comments i am getting. never thought anyone would come to this humble abode of mine. heh... oh well, you accept my comments and i accept yours. all other people have their own opinions but just so happens, you know mine. no harm i know yours too.. so keep it coming. i don't mind.

i am having a wonderful weekend with my lovely hubby!!!! been spending almost every single waking moment with him and i am loving every minute of it. we went on a shopping spree and went clubbing last night. heh... i'd better keep the details of it... perhaps too explicit for some. :P

but another working day tomorrow.... i'm not dreading it but it gets me so tired at the end of the day. i love the babies and how they can be such entertainment. when i get to see how they grow up and learn their life skills, it gives me such satisfaction. i definitely love my job...

i think i better turn my attention back to my hubby who's looking pretty bored right now.. heh.. baby, here i come!!

*shhhhhh......*

7/09/2006 03:32:00 PM

(0) comments Sunday, July 02, 2006

well well... Mega Perdana finals... what do i say? the guys were definitely disappointed. they couldn't give their all somehow. i felt it too... felt like something was holding them back on stage. heard that they all cried when they went off stage after their turn. sigh, all those trainings so as to be consistent in every stage of the competition wore them down completely. almost all of them were ill with something. i really feel their sadness in their hearts....

in my honest opinion, it was truly all biased. it's not that i am thinking of keris's side. but looking at it, since when kelana and myk(both groups) truly embraced harmonisation???? seriously, no matter how bad or how good kelana perform, they still go through. shows how inconsistent mega perdana is this year. i can't really say much except that i still believe in keris. no more respect for KELANA, NENG NYNO. SERIOUSLY. si anak seni deserved their place in the finals instead. gosh, they really need to find their own creativity instead of taking it from other groups and making it their own. sheesh... pathetic.

but wahana was excellent. they definitely deserve that piala wanita. it was meant to be theirs. no argument on that. in my opinion, they have definitely beaten a lot of other guy groups in the competition.. including their own, kelana and neng. if only the people knew the real truth of what's going on behind the curtains and doors of this competition.... is it so hard for a dikir competition to be truly honest, open and unbiased?? when keris did the split concept in awok2 and harmonisation in mega perdana 2004, the judges and everyone else came hard on them. but judging from last night, almost every single group did that. what the hell is going on???

ok, i better stop talking about this because it truly eats at my heart.

to my dear keris, you guys are the true winners in my eyes and heart. to me and balqis, keris is our idol... our mentor. we will support you all the way through your journey.

the only groups i believe in now is JBR, SAS, KERIS. JBR was the only group who truly did what they were doing throughout the whole time... staying TRUE to their own IDENTITY.

to those who don't like what i said, BITE ME.

fauzi was sad and upset... but at least we had a good weekend. next weekend will be even better ok baby?? i promise you... and no matter what, i will always love, support and believe in you. MUAX!!!

and now i need sleep.... tomorrow.. WORK!! darn it....

7/02/2006 11:08:00 PM

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well well... Mega Perdana finals... what do i say? the guys were definitely disappointed. they couldn't give their all somehow. i felt it too... felt like something was holding them back on stage. heard that they all cried when they went off stage after their turn. sigh, all those trainings so as to be consistent in every stage of the competition wore them down completely. almost all of them were ill with something. i really feel their sadness in their hearts....

in my honest opinion, it was truly all biased. it's not that i am thinking of keris's side. but looking at it, since when kelana and myk(both groups) truly embraced harmonisation???? seriously, no matter how bad or how good kelana perform, they still go through. shows how inconsistent mega perdana is this year. i can't really say much except that i still believe in keris. no more respect for KELANA, NENG NYNO. SERIOUSLY. si anak seni deserved their place in the finals instead. gosh, they really need to find their own creativity instead of taking it from other groups and making it their own. sheesh... pathetic.

but wahana was excellent. they definitely deserve that piala wanita. it was meant to be theirs. no argument on that. in my opinion, they have definitely beaten a lot of other guy groups in the competition.. including their own, kelana and neng. if only the people knew the real truth of what's going on behind the curtains and doors of this competition.... is it so hard for a dikir competition to be truly honest, open and unbiased?? when keris did the split concept in awok2, the judges came hard on them. but judging from last night, almost every single group did that. what the hell is going on???

ok, i better stop talking about this because it truly eats at my heart.

to my dear keris, you guys are the true winners in my eyes and heart. to me and balqis, keris is our idol... our mentor. we will support you all the way through your journey.

the only groups i believe in now is JBR, SAS, KERIS. JBR was the only group who truly did what they were doing throughout the whole time... staying TRUE to their own IDENTITY.

to those who don't like what i said, BITE ME.

fauzi was sad and upset... but at least we had a good weekend. next weekend will be even better ok baby?? i promise you... and no matter what, i will always love, support and believe in you. MUAX!!!

and now i need sleep.... tomorrow.. WORK!! darn it....

7/02/2006 11:08:00 PM

(0) comments Monday, June 26, 2006

hi.... hello...

i am tired... reacquaint my heart with Him.. please...

bye

6/26/2006 11:21:00 PM

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hi... hello...

i am tired... reacquaint my heart with Him... please...

bye

6/26/2006 11:15:00 PM

(0) comments Sunday, June 18, 2006

Dikir puteri... must have been the fastest competition ever. only 3 groups in... wonder what happened to the other groups who had signed up to the competition but backed out in the end.

We won... we didn't want to expect or hope for anything. it is anybody's game truthfully. it is after all up to the judges to decide who wins what. and balqis won best lyrics, best song, best awok2, best singer and 1st placing... i didn't really hope for the best lyrics part but when we heard we won that category, everybody was seriously happy for Yanni. this is her reward for her hard work. i admit i made a lot of mistakes on stage because i only came down to 3 trainings due to my work and classes. these two things are seriously taking up a lot of my time and energy.

and yesterday morning, i woke up to fauzi shivering like it was winter when there was not even a fan or air conditioner on. he was suddenly down with fever... very high fever. he was bundling himself up, shivering like mad but his body was so hot. that stubborn lil sayang of mine didn't even want to shower with cold water to cool his body down because he thought that he'll be fine. well, he seems a bit better today but still having fever. my poor baby was so weak yesterday during his perdana training. he couldn't even sit down for a short period of time due to his dizziness. and i got even more worried when he only ate like 10 spoonfuls of food the whole day yesterday. seriously, seeing him like that nearly made me cry. i felt so helpless and lost, not knowing how to make him feel better. i couldn't even touch him because he said my hands were cold even though it is normal body temperature. i can only pray to Him that he's taken cared of and that he doesn't get worse. so so so so so worried for him...

and now i need sleep.... i had a looooongg day....

6/18/2006 06:42:00 AM

(0) comments Wednesday, June 07, 2006

Sade - By Your Side

You think I'd leave your side baby?
You know me better than that
You think I'd leave you down when you're down on your knees?
I wouldn't do that

I'll do you right when your wrong
I-----ohhh, ohhh

If only you could see into me

oh, when you're cold
I'll be there to hold you tight to me

When you're on the outside baby and you can't get in
I will show you, you're so much better than you know
When you're lost, when you're alone and you can't get back again
I will find you, darling I'll bring you home

If you want to cry
I am here to dry your eyes
and in no time you'll be fine

You think I'd leave your side baby
You know me better than that
You think I'd leave you down when you're down on your knees
I wouldn't do that

I'll do you right when you're wrong
I-----I, ohhhh, ohhh

If only you could see into me

Oh when you're cold, I'll be there hold you tight to me
Oh when you're alone, I'll be there by your side baby

I've been playing this song in my media player non-stop. such an old song... and it gives me such wonderful feelings. Fauzi remembered this song and if he hadn't, i wouldn't remember this song at all for the rest of my life. this song always makes me think of him. the song tells exactly what i'd do for him whenever he needs someone.

*baby... this is our song... heh!*

congrats to the Ayangs on their engagement last night!! :) It was Bob's birthday and POC celebration, plus their engagement and 2nd year anniversary. hehehe... to top it off, they are going bangkok later at 5pm. they deserve this holiday. they need it to relax, chill and get reacquanited with each other. i wonder when it's my turn to go for a holiday!! sheesh...

at this moment, i can just pray the best for them and for those whom i love dearly in my heart. (why the emo moment eh??!?!) i don't know what's coming over me right now. life is not a game because once a mistake is made, there's no turning back time. i treasure my life so much right now because i get to live and breathe in an easy setting. at any time, that can be taken away from me. live life to the fullest... our own life is our own responsibility, not any one else's...

ok this just means i need sleep....

*i can only offer thanks and gratitude to the One above. syukur alhamdulillah...*

6/07/2006 08:14:00 AM

(0) comments Saturday, June 03, 2006

ok kiera darling... updating blog now!! hehe..

gentarasa tonight.. keris performing. i can't wait to watch my baby perform! i remember the first time i saw him perform in a concert was nearly 2 years ago at victoria theatre. he was playing the accordian for sri warisan, abg zubir's side. at that point of time, he still had his long dyed hair. hehehe... now just cropped black hair. i am sure that he misses that hair.

been tired for the past few weeks. work and school has been taking up a lot of my energy that i don't even feel like eating. no time to eat too. but even that, i am still gaining weight!!!! shit man... everybody has been telling me that i have gained weight. too happy lah. heh. happy with him...

our plans for the future is slowly coming into the picture. our small engagement.. planned to nikah gantung. to be halal is more important. i don't really want to sanding so fast anyway. malay culture is just that.. a culture. religion is what matters most. sanding is last in my head actually. too lazy to think of the invitations, the catering, the what nots. does marriage have to take up so much work? can't we just tell the world that we want to be legally married by email? to me, sanding is just a way to ease the hearts of our elders. so that people won't talk or spread rumours. i've never cared for all that since i realised social discrimination at 12 years of age. can you imagine i was actually a social outcast in school because i cannot be bothered with "friends" who like to back stab each other, deem you popular one minute and then the most hated person the next second and all that social "politics" shit?? i will never claim myself to have lots of friends. i'd rather have few true friends than lots of "friends". i have seen almost every single kind of behaviour of people who wants to be popular and accepted. let's just say that i look at them with pity. pathetic. to want to be socially accepted can be so important to some people that they end up not accepting their own being. they change and change according to peoples' view and wants. truly pathetic...

ok back to my own self(heh!!), i need sleep... i truly need sleep..... just waiting for that one day that i can sleep the whole freaking day. that one day when i don't have any work, no classes, no trainings, no shows, no competitions, no outings, no appointments, no nothing. if like that, i have to wait long long lah eh!!!

*baby, i can't wait to start a whole new life with you soon. you are my bantal busyuk, my alarm clock, my lover, my best friend, my confidante, my baby.... you're my fantasy come true. i love you hubby!!*

6/03/2006 10:31:00 AM

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