Saturday, June 03, 2006
ok kiera darling... updating blog now!! hehe..
gentarasa tonight.. keris performing. i can't wait to watch my baby perform! i remember the first time i saw him perform in a concert was nearly 2 years ago at victoria theatre. he was playing the accordian for sri warisan, abg zubir's side. at that point of time, he still had his long dyed hair. hehehe... now just cropped black hair. i am sure that he misses that hair.
been tired for the past few weeks. work and school has been taking up a lot of my energy that i don't even feel like eating. no time to eat too. but even that, i am still gaining weight!!!! shit man... everybody has been telling me that i have gained weight. too happy lah. heh. happy with him...
our plans for the future is slowly coming into the picture. our small engagement.. planned to nikah gantung. to be halal is more important. i don't really want to sanding so fast anyway. malay culture is just that.. a culture. religion is what matters most. sanding is last in my head actually. too lazy to think of the invitations, the catering, the what nots. does marriage have to take up so much work? can't we just tell the world that we want to be legally married by email? to me, sanding is just a way to ease the hearts of our elders. so that people won't talk or spread rumours. i've never cared for all that since i realised social discrimination at 12 years of age. can you imagine i was actually a social outcast in school because i cannot be bothered with "friends" who like to back stab each other, deem you popular one minute and then the most hated person the next second and all that social "politics" shit?? i will never claim myself to have lots of friends. i'd rather have few true friends than lots of "friends". i have seen almost every single kind of behaviour of people who wants to be popular and accepted. let's just say that i look at them with pity. pathetic. to want to be socially accepted can be so important to some people that they end up not accepting their own being. they change and change according to peoples' view and wants. truly pathetic...
ok back to my own self(heh!!), i need sleep... i truly need sleep..... just waiting for that one day that i can sleep the whole freaking day. that one day when i don't have any work, no classes, no trainings, no shows, no competitions, no outings, no appointments, no nothing. if like that, i have to wait long long lah eh!!!
*baby, i can't wait to start a whole new life with you soon. you are my bantal busyuk, my alarm clock, my lover, my best friend, my confidante, my baby.... you're my fantasy come true. i love you hubby!!*