Tuesday, May 02, 2006
i am so darn sick at the moment. been sick for the past couple of days. i hate it when i get sick suddenly. there's no expecting whether it will get worse or better. for me, it got worse and i got 2 days mc.
i wish so much that he is here with me to take care of me. he always makes me feel better with his hugs, kisses and massages. sigh... we went out to town with the Keris family yesterday and he had to book in that night. when it was time to go home, my heart became so heavy because inside, i needed him so badly to take care of me since i was sick. watching him leave for his train nearly made me cry. yes, i know i am a crybaby but hell, i love him. he confessed to me later that his heart is always heavy whenever he had to leave me. and i do believe him because i can see the pain in his face when he had to walk away from me and go into the train. kissing him goodbye yesterday was already hard enough. but hey, if he can stay strong, so can i. SIGHHHH.....
i need to go eat now before eating my medicine. two of my medicines are the drowsy type. so i suppose i'll be looking stoned all day. craps... craps.. craps....