Thursday, December 22, 2005
can you imagine i messaged him that i cannot meet him today because i need a couple more days before seeing him?? in truth, i am scared to see him. i don't want to end up crying or doing something that i'll regret when i see him. yes, i am a COWARD. so what did a coward like me go and do?? tell him that i cannot see him because i need more time and go for the competition rehearsal at mediacorp. sheesh... but shocker of all shockers, he replied saying that it's ok and that he'll go and cancel the leave he took tomorrow. AAARRRRRGGGGHHHHH!!!!! what the fuck am i doing?!?!?!?!?!??!? seriously, i think i should go jump down from the 12th storey right now. and jump another time if i survive!! what the fuck sia.... have i gone cuckoo or something???
anybody want to volunteer to hammer my head into my neck???
*note to head: make up your blardy mind can???? don't make me do or say something that i'll regret...*