Monday, November 28, 2005"you are not a burden but a treasure that i have to take care..." -fauzi
he considers me as his responsibility. he takes care of me like how a loving husband would on his doting wife. he hugs and kisses my forehead when i am down, never needing words to comfort me. he trusts me with his whole heart and soul, never doubting me even though he's away most of the time. and he loves me, unconditionally.
where else can i find such a perfect man for me?? he pampers me whenever he can. it gives me such great confidence when he tells me that i am beautiful and sexy, not just pretty and cute. he lets me do whatever i wish and gives me the space i need to pursue my dreams. yes, there are times i do wish that i am married to him so that i can properly cook for him, take care of him and have peaceful nights sleeping side by side. he conquered my heart with such ease; i wonder sometimes how he does it. there's never a day that goes by without me saying thanks to the Almighty for bringing me a gift that lasts me a lifetime. i treasure every moment that we're together. we tend to be in a world of our own when we get so caught up with each other. no one else, other than God and my family, gives me such unconditional love.
but sometimes i feel guilty because i've made a man surround his life around me. he's considering signing on just so he can take care of me. i ponder on whether he's doing this to make him or me happy. sure, it's a stable career and he do like the combat life but i pray that whatever decision he makes, it makes him happy.
after his recruits come in this friday, i'll go find a proper job. time for me to cool down my dancing life and concentrate on my future with him. maybe a part time job first to ease myself into the working arena. at least there'll be money coming in every month to add to his pay. the more money we make, the more we can save up for the future.
as for now, i have to go shower my niece and nephew. and then get ready to go cc to teach silverartis and dikir training. i hope i don't get so tired because i am already feeling sleepy from taking pills for cold and flu. *sniff sniff* i hate the flu....
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