Sunday, November 20, 2005
life's coming good now. though not truly stable, at least i feel happy because i have him. my heart skipped a beat when he sms-ed me saying that life will not be complete without me. it always feels good when someone you love tells you how much you mean to him/her.
did our deeparaya show at tekong last friday. there were like 7 girls and 3 guys so imagine the recruits there turning their heads towards us when we had to walk past them to the hall. hehehehe... suweet!! love the attention!! :) upon reaching there, we practiced and practiced as that was our ONLY practice for the show that night. but all in all, we gave our best and we got praises from the top people there. cool eh?? nadia was so cute when it came to boarding the 'avalanche', the smaller and faster version of the ferry. she couldn't look down to watch where she was going because she was so afraid!! and my poor baby fell sick that day. he had the flu and when we came back home, he was burning!! the next day, his temperature became normal but he lost his voice totally. had to settle with whispers of 'i love you'-s. hehehe... all in all, it was fun. the girls and a couple of the guys never went to tekong before so it was a good experience for them. everyone was so tired by the end of the day.
still feeling tired, fauzi and i just chilled together at his place, enjoying each other's company. went to johore for a short while to buy cigarettes and send my stuff, his bass guitar and kompangs to my place. headed back to his place and slept there. i always have a good night's rest whenever he's near. his presence never fails to help me feel serene. and so, we woke up around 5am as he had to go back to camp for his COS duty. i sent him to the station and took the bus home. i tried to sleep upon landing on my comfy bed but just couldn't. so here i am... blogging away....
my posts nowadays seems so mundane and simple. been basically too lazy and tired to think of whatsoever. trust me, my life's a lot more happening than what i describe. not that i go to wild parties or whatsoever but sometimes, a simple thing happening in our everyday lives can be so significant to us that it is just impossible to describe verbally or text-ually. :) but i am simply happy and full of love. i am sure it's nauseating to some people if they were to read that but i truly am. 15 months together and the passionate spark is still there. i hope it will still be there and as strong in years to come. honestly, i plan to get married to this guy. the process will be slow but steady. the both of us are in no rush actually but my mom's the one rushing me. oh well, you know, the typical run-through nagging that it's not nice to go out with 'BOYS' and do whatever especially in the eyes of others(meaning relatives and family). but if he and i are not mentally, emotionally and financially prepared for it, then for what?? true? maybe in a year's time, we'll get engaged or something just to please my mom. but for now, we'll stay as boyfriend/girlfriend. it's not like we are going to cheat on each other or what not! i trust him and he trust me. and with such trust and bond, insya'allah nothing bad will happen to our relationship.
i've still got to meet hamdan later. he's helping carry the kompang back to cc. that guy is such a super nice guy. oda's definitely a lucky girl to have him. and lucky me to have friends like him.
dearest baby, whatever you choose to do in life, i will always wait for you. you are meant for me and me for you. be assured that i'll be there for you no matter when, no matter where, no matter how. if anybody, especially you, asks why in doubt, it's just because i love you....
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