Wednesday, September 14, 2005
why do we act the way we do? why do we think the way we do? why do we feel the way we do? ever wondered why you're here on earth?? i wonder that too many times...
what's this human fascination with love? monogamy? fidelity? how does someone truly define them? why is it that we feel obligated to stay loyal to only one after reaching the point of declaring love for that person? and why do we feel like our guts have been ripped out of us with a jagged steel knife after that person decides to (1)leave us, (2)betray us, (3)beat us, (4)or all of the above??why do some people feel such remorse while others feel nothing?? what makes us able to judge them when we don't even know our ownselves?? why do we let ourselves lug around that emotional baggage??
all questions and answers that are nowhere to be found... at least not anywhere near me.
this only means that i'm thinking too much and that i am having my damned period. it makes me overly emotional, sensitive and paranoid. sheesh... someone please slap my head hard!! it was just so embarrassing when i found my panties to be soaked with blood and i had to sms omar to send my bag to the toilet so that i can change. thank goodness for my habit of bringing extra undies everywhere i go!!! but i pray that mr. cranky doesn't decide to pay me a visit anytime soon. if only i can put a restraining order on him... pfft!!! as if!!
i think what i should do now is sleep the time away till the afternoon and hope that i get to see my sweetheart sooner. when he books out, nobody's more happier than me. i just hope it goes both ways. :)