Wednesday, July 06, 2005
monday had us at the Mandai crematorium. the mother is a very strong woman and held herself up for most of the rites but the pain and suffering of a mother who lost her child finally took over in the viewing hall where the sight of the closed casket was brought in slowly and it was simply too excruciating and torturous. i didn't really dare to look. i didn't want to look.
after that, it was a reunion of sorts for Fauzi and his friends though it was for the wrong reason. but it was nice to see him talking again to an old friend of his whom he hasn't talked to for years due to a reason in the shape of girl. memories recollected... new ones made...
and hey, at least i got to meet linda nj for the first time.. first thing i thought to myself was that she looks so sophisticated. fauzi commented about us.. "ah, bloggies.." hehehe...
we were supposed to spend a romantic evening out at sentosa in my new tent that monday because it was our 11th month anniversary but due to an army convention on tuesday(which was only told to him right before he was to book out! GERAM!!), he thought of cancelling our beach date. i actually cried when i found this out(i was in the bus towards pasir ris when he told me) because to me, time is very precious when i am with him. i can only see him like once or twice a week or sometimes never until two or three weeks later. and monday was like the very first time in our relationship that we are together on our anniversary. previously we had to resort to pre or post anniversary celebrations. but in the end, we compromised on spending the night at the 'ulu' and deserted sembawang beach. somehow, the beach wasn't that ulu that night due to a loud karaoke session held at the restaurant/bar there. i bet the ghosts there decided to plug their ears and run off because i felt like doing that! thank goodness it ended right before 1am. if it didn't, i wouldn't know how i'd be able to sleep!!
we packed up for home early the next day so he wouldn't be late for the army convention. i decided that i'd send him until city hall and then i'd go on my own way to yanni's workplace in orchard until the convention ends. so there i was lugging my huge sling bag and tent under both armpits to city hall and then to town. yanni gave me a plate of chicken spaghetti to eat for lunch while i waited for him to arrive. i felt bad for getting free food and drinks from yanni and also i really wanted to get fauzi his late lunch so i bought an egg sandwich which in turn got him nagging at me. sigh... by 6plus pm, we moved off to PA for his gala practice. i got two free tickets to watch the gala concert this weekend. maybe i'll ask my mom. hehehe... one fine way for me to show off my boyfriend to my mom eh? by the end of the day, he was so tired and i just had to send him off to pasir ris just to squeeze in more time together. sounds like a desperate attempt to spend time with each other but hey, that's what love does to people.
today is wednesday and i'll get to see him again this saturday though once again, we won't be able to spend as much time with each other as we should have due to the concert. but it's ok. we still got the next weekend. oh darn.. i forgot. the next weekend will be even more worse because of dikir citra. sigh... i wonder when the both of us can just take our time to pay all the attention in the world to each other. maybe on our 1st year anniversary, we can go on a trip to KL or something. or maybe not. he might have to go for his company's field camps. oh well... too bad for me... no other choice but to squeeze in time for each other until God knows when... sigh.. i miss him terribly!!!! i just want to be in his warm arms and be lavished with his kisses... sleep the whole day through in his embrace... go swimming even though he can't swim... walk around woodlands in the middle of the night and talk about anything under the bright moon and twinkling stars.. i miss doing all that... i really do...
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