Sunday, July 03, 2005
Death... is inevitable. It'll come for you one day whether you like it or not... whether you asked for it or not. For some, it came unexpectedly... right when you are at the prime of your life.. enjoying every single moment. For some, they demand for it to come... self-inflicted death.. showing how life can be unappreciated at times. For some, it eats them up slowly... forcing them to go through pain... to make them suffer for apparently no reason obvious to us.
But it's not happening to me. It's happening to those in Fauzi's life. First the death of a fellow sergeant in Tekong after a run. Next is the death of his secondary school friend with a gun shot wound to his head. Fauzi is fine.. he's not taking it so seriously because he has to focus on the things at hand and that is his recruits and their training. But it scares me. Death should not be feared but people fear more of losing their loved ones to it forever.
Of course, it is all in the hands of the Almighty and He takes whoever He chooses. Shows how unpredictable and vulnerable life actually is. I am grateful for what I have now. What I don't have is what I don't need. What I have now is what I should be appreciating with all of my heart. I shouldn't have complained about my 'fat' body or 'ugly' face. I should be thankful that I am not handicapped in any way and that I've been blessed with a pleasant face and healthy body.
Death changes everything.. anything it comes close to...