Tuesday, June 14, 2005
he's still not messaged me whether he's ready to give me those answers or not!!!!! if he really did love me as much as he did, he would already have all those answers since yesterday!!! darn it... is it that damn hard to think up of the answers to those questions i posed to him??? maybe he wasn't at all ready for a relationship in the first place. if only i hadn't threatened to totally leave his life if he still doesn't know how he feels for me, he wouldn't have been pressured to get into a relationship with me in the first place. ok, that makes me sound desperate. sigh, maybe i was. maybe i wasn't. oh i don't know. i don't know anything. i'm confused. i forgot just how confusing love can get. argh!! i think i'd better get ready to go for my dikir training now. at least it'll help me to get my mind off him.... and more....