Thursday, June 16, 2005
apparently, he had been waiting to talk to me for the whole day but couldn't when his friend booked out yesterday and only came back today. after the frustrating sms i sent him, i swore that i was going to wage war if he wasn't to reply by today. thank his lucky stars, he did reply and we finally had a good talk. he had actually written down everything that he wanted to tell me on paper just so he wouldn't miss out on anything important. After reading to me what he wrote down, the both of us nearly cried on the phone because it felt like we had gone through 3 weeks instead of 3 days of not talking to each other. well, mainly for me, i had missed him terribly. he said 'i miss you' constantly too. he had vowed not to hold himself back any longer. before this, he has been holding back public affection as to be more sensitive to the feelings of those single men/women and elderly peoply who might see us. in my head, i was thinking "well, what about me then?" but now, i don't have to worry about that. we are meeting this friday and only then will i see how much he has changed. sheesh... i've been so stressed about this issue that a pimple has decided to show up on my darn flat nose!!! i've not had pimples for such a long time and one miserable pimple decides to invade my face today. hmph....
but i am glad that this is done and over with. i am glad that i still have him in my life. when he told me that he is scared of losing me, my heart just melted. i fear losing him too, that's for sure and i will try my ultimate best to keep him until the end of time. and my heart just soared when he said 'i love you' first before we were to put down the phone. normally, it's me who does it first but i am sure glad he took over that role!!! hehehehehe.... -hani is back in cloud nine, people!!-
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