Friday, February 04, 2005
6 months together... and going stronger as time passes by...
but it feels so much shorter though... like it's only 2 months instead of 6...
i can still remember that very first time we met, after being online acquaintances for more than a year and having been lived in the same area and went to the same poly but of no memory ever crossing each other's paths....
we harboured no hope about each other ever committing in a relationship, even though we kind of knew that we had feelings for each other, out of the fear of getting disappointed and having our hearts broken again... it was an unspoken agreement that i soon broke as i soon realised that i had fallen for him... hard...
if i had not taken things into my own hands and "threatened" him into choosing between me and his decision to take things slow -keyword here is SLOW- and go with the flow, i bet the both of us would be beating our heads into the wall with blood of regret all over it...
i admit.. it was so damn easy to fall in love in him.. he managed to break my guard down the first moment we saw each other. with his gentleness, his sweet love, his affection, his simplicity, his sincerity, his honesty... how can i not fall in love with this guy?!?! his dedication to this relationship had me realise just how rare of a guy i have in my life right now. he takes great care of me, especially when i got sick recently during his long weekend. instead of the medicine, it was his hugs, kisses and jokes made me all the better even though i was coughing and sneezing like mad with fever looming on. he made time for me to take care of me... caressing my cheek while i sleep soundly.. watching over me like an angel, making sure i was as comfortable as i should be.. never leaving my side when i needed him. it was those small gestures that made me want to love him even more, which i easily did. i love him as much as my life. it was when i was sick that i knew he will not abandon me in times to come. my heart finally says that he's the one that i can truly depend on.. the right one.
we don't express much of what we feel, but of what we think mostly. but when we do express our true emotions, it is as real, as honest and as sincere as it can be. i am glad we opened our hearts to each other, at a time when our hearts should have been shut tight due to some unfortunate events in each of our lives.
it is with this love, that i am able to breathe freely.. feel easy about myself..
i've never been this high with happiness... until now...
fauzi, you are the love of my life... you are the light that shines upon the darkness in my life... you are my pillar of support... you represent the air that i breathe.. without it, i'm dead... i love you deeply with all of my heart and soul.. i love you.. i love you so much...