Tuesday, November 02, 2004
I feel my head spinning....
My stupid brother reformatted the whole PC without telling me. Once again, all of my data is gone!! I hate this... I hate having to redo everything again. I should get my own PC perhaps.
Sunday was a day that made me feel really horrible inside. Remember the part where I said that something was going to happen? One of the most compatible couple that I could have ever known are now no more. Sigh, I can only pray that they'll find their way back together. Maybe they are not meant to be together now but later in life. They are young anyway. I pray for them the best. Sunday afternoon saw me walking around Causeway Point to buy some necessities since my mom did ask me whether I wanted anything. Hehehe. But I only bought a pair of slippers which I'd like to wear for Hari Raya and a couple of much needed bras. Since I was already outside, I went over to Fauzi's place. He had just woken up so with his scrummy face and bantal busuk in tow, he still looked damn cute though! Plus the fact that he was only in his pants, half-naked. Looks absolutely gorgeous! *winks* I prepared his uniform when he went to shower and we made our way to Kallang to break fast with the rest of the gang. We took up nearly half of Iman restaurant!! After that, we made our way to Geylang. It was quite funny to be walking around Geylang with your boyfriend in his army uniform. But hell, he did carry my bag!! Hehehehe.. He rarely carries my bag unless I ask him to!! :P But as minutes passed by, time was running out for him as he had to book into camp. We were supposed to go off at 8.30pm but right when we were about to leave, his friend asked him to stay and offered to send him to Pasir Ris on his bike. Before I knew it, he agreed and I was fuming. The rest of the time we were there, I didn't even manage a look at him because I was so mad at him. The reason was basically because he made a decision without consulting me with the fact that it affects me. I always send him off to Pasir Ris and what made this time an exception?? He thought I was upset at him about another thing so I straightened it out and when everybody kept asking me why I was looking upset, I just gave them a shake of my head saying nothing. In the end, he made the same mistake by telling his friend that he's not going on the bike and that he's going with me. Well, naturally I became even more furious. In my head, I was like going "Two same mistakes in less den half an hour!! ARGH!". By the time he told me he had changed his mind, it was already 9pm and if we were to take the MRT, he'll be damn late. We had to take the cab. It was nearly 5 minutes of silence in the cab before he said something. That was when I finally went into detail what he did. Considering I was having my period, it was a miracle I didn't shout at him!! Basically the reason why I was truly upset at him was because I love the private time we have when I send him off. No other people with us so gives me more quality time spent with him. And when changing plans without asking me, it made me even more upset. Then him making the same mistake again by changing back to the original plan without asking me again only made me furious. Sigh, that was the first time I was seriously annoyed and furious at him. Eventually, he did apologise and realised his mistake(this is something rare in guys... realising their mistake and owning up for it!!) but I definitely didn't expect him to shed tears. Gosh, it broke my heart to see him cry. Seeing that it's been ages since he did have a proper relationship, I guess he didn't know how to handle the situation correctly. Those tears only showed to me how much he loves and cherish me. This is one side of him that people rarely see, the emotional side of him. He was trying so hard to make up to me for his mistake that he ended up making the same mistake unknowingly. That silly little twit of mine. Things was fine when we got to Pasir Ris though there were still a bit of awkwardness around each other. But things are much better now. We talked on the phone that night and cleared the air. I did feel bad for hurting his feelings up to the point he 'panicked' in wanting to please me. Silly boy he is but still MY boy. Sigh, I really love him a lot. I love him so much... I seriously wonder what I'll do if I was to lose him. Urgh, I shouldn't be thinking of that.
Damn the headaches... Later in the evening, I've got tarian. And I've yet to do anything for my audition. I am such a procastinator. ARGH!! HEADACHE!! *banging her head on the keyboard*
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