Monday, October 04, 2004
Gosh, I am feeling so tired now. But first things first....
HAPPY 2nd MONTH ANNIVERSARY TO MY SWEETHEART!!!!
Today is our 2nd month anniversary and we would have been able to celebrate it together if not for his stupid PC who still didn't give him the day off yesterday even after giving the CC's letter asking for the day off yesterday. We didn't get to spend much time together the past weekend because he's been busy with dikir training and Perdana competition while I was busy with tarian training and Perdana opening. Sigh, that poor darling of mine was so sick last Thursday night that he got two days MC and when he told me that he was at home last Friday morning instead of being in camp, I quickly rushed to his place only to make myself feel even more worried because his body was so damn hot!! He was with high fever and coughs. His temperature was a whopping 39.6!! But he eventually got better as time passed by basically because I kept reminding him to eat his medicine.
Mega Perdana was great. Keris gave a great performance!! Keris was Top 3 for the best Juara(singer) and best Paluan(percussion) and with no surprise, Syed got Juara Harapan(singer with most potential). At national level, these were great achievements for them because they can be considered a young group and at their first try at Perdana, they were able to get into the finals. That in itself is a very big achievement. Whatever it is Keris, you guys are winners in my eyes!! Like Fauzi said, this is just the beginning....
As for me, the tarian performance went great though my sleeve kept getting stuck at my sanggul(headgear). It was a lot of "rush-rush" and "chop-chop" moments, especially when we only had less than 1 hour to make up 9 dancers!! Hehehe... The show started late because of us!! Hehehe... Like as if we had any other choice!!
After the whole competition, I sent Fauzi off to Pasir Ris Interchange in the taxi and considering that I got to know that he was booking into camp only hours before the show, I was not really ready for him to go off because I felt that we didn't spend enough time together and I had assumed that he was booking in on Monday morning so I thought that we could spend time together the whole night after the competition. In the taxi, he did say he was sorry but I was not blaming him. I couldn't blame anyone. He gave me some money to spend for this week because he knew that I was dead broke and so the feeling of disappointment plus grateful plus sadness plus happiness, I ended up crying in the taxi beside him. He wiped away a tear and asked me why I was crying. I only replied, "I've never had anyone....treat me as well the way you do..." and I knew he sensed that there was more that was troubling me because he mentioned that he observed that I've been looking troubled by something the past few days. Well, I only told him everything on the phone when I got home because there was just not much time in the taxi to tell him everything. All I wanted was him to get to the interchange on time to fall in with his platoon. But it was a relief to be able to talk to him on the phone and finally tell him all... well almost all... that's been troubling me nowadays. I cried basically because of a lot of pent up feelings. Sigh... He's been nothing but patient and sweet to me. I am so lucky to have him. He promised me that we'll spend the whole of this weekend together and only us together before he goes off to field camp next week in which I won't be able to see him for 2 whole weeks!!! SHEESH!! I wonder how I am going to cope!! Sigh... I wish I am in his arms right now...
I am missing you so much right now... I am thinking of u every single moment....
Because of that and more, I love you with all my heart.... My sweet darling...
My sweetheart...
My love...
Fauzi....
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