Thursday, September 30, 2004
I am missing Fauzi a lot nowadays, probably because of my PMS which makes me feel so EMO!! DAMN IT!! SHEESH!! We nearly got into a fight just now all because we've not talked to each other the whole day and I thought that he had forgotten all about me until he figured that I might be with the BBCC gang and called Bob's handphone. Apparently, that darling of mine thought that I had no tarian on Wednesday and that tarian was on Thursday when it was actually the other way around and I clearly remembered telling him the change in schedule. Well, I got quite upset at him all for that small pathetic reason. But I just missed him so much. PMS!! I hate PMS!! PMS makes every single emotion magnified to exaggeration. But everything is fine with him and me. We very rarely fight or argue basically because he gives in most of the time!! Hehehehe... Just kidding. We basically listen to each other's needs and wants and one thing about us is that we HATE to argue or fight no matter how angry or upset each might get. This is the one thing that we have in common. When the both of us are upset or angry, we keep quiet because we know that in such a mood, when there is nothing nice to say, better to just shut up. Works very well for the both of us.
One thing I admire about him is that no matter how tough the situation he's in, no matter how hard life can get, he still keeps up a smile, puts up with it and never complain. He's not at all afraid to admit his own mistakes and learn from it. So gentle on the outside but yet firm and disciplined on the inside. This particular character of his is what made me attracted to him in the first place. Just where else can I actually find a guy like him anymore??? So I definitely feel lucky to have him... Very very lucky.. For he treats me well and never made me feel like I am worthless, unlike my other ex-boyfriends. He makes me cry tears of joy and that is a first! I am never letting him go...
Meanwhile, I was feeling quite restless two nights ago and this was what I did...
Yes... I actually cut my fringe. What do you guys think?? Do I look worse?? Hahaha.. I don't know and whatever the comments are, if good, then I'm glad but if bad, there is nothing I can do, right?? But I like it though. I've been wanting a short fringe for nearly my whole life but was so scared to cut it off because I wouldn't want to ruin my hair and face. What made me cut my fringe?? Actually, I do not know. I just felt like it so I just took a pair of scissors and a mirror and snipped it off!! FYI, I am not going mental. It's a spur of the moment thing... A spontaneous reaction to boredom and PMS. Hope you guys like it!! I sure hope that Fauzi likes it though!! Wonder how he's going to react to this...