Tuesday, August 17, 2004
My darling Fauzi will be going in NS in about 6 hours time. shittos ya know. And he is going to be so far away from me for 2 to 3 weeks. Damn it. And my buddy, Dean is already at Tekong. Another shitto. I've lost two of my night time online chatters to National Slavery. Now, I got no one else to chat with at night. BOOO HOOO!!!!!!! Damn it. I've lost Dean to the government yesterday and I will be losing Fauzi too in 6 hours time. Bummer.
haiz... i miss Dean already. And I will definitely miss Fauzi even more!!! I will miss the way he makes me laugh, the way he makes me smile, the way he thinks, the way he talks, the way he pulls up jokes on his friends, the way he laughs, the way he looks away at other things when he knows I am staring at his eyes(he got beautiful dark brown eyes!!!), the way he smiles cheekily at me and kembang his nose, the way he hugs me, the way he kisses me, the way he eats......
Ok ok ok... There is a lot of things about him I will miss. In fact, I will miss everything about him. Once, he kept lamenting about his hair and lil goatee which will be shaved off once he goes in and I just said, "I don't care that your hair and goatee will be gone as long as I still got you...". Sheesh!!! Since when do I get SO sappy and mushy?!?!? Sigh, I just cant help it because he makes me feel so special and he is so sincere with his thoughts, gestures and... tears. Yes, you read it right. TEARS. He comes across as a very happy go lucky guy who seems to have almost no worries in the world in other people's eyes but I know the deeper side of him. I've SEEN that side of him no one else(if not for those really very close to him) has seen. Last Saturday, he was late in meeting me back at east coast beach and on the phone with him while he was on the way, I had sounded different than usual. Thinking that I was upset at him, he tried as hard as he could to reach ECP and when he did, I could see tears welling up in his eyes as he said, "I just hate it when shows end so late..." with the voice breaking. Maybe he won't admit this but it is truly what I heard and saw with my own two eyes and ears. To be honest, I WAS upset when it became really late for him to meet up but the moment I saw him walk up to my table, the anger just melted away because I finally knew that he was with me and that was all that mattered. Knowing that he made such effort for me touched my heart so deep, that I fell deeper in love with him. The fact that he wears his heart on his sleeve is another appealing factor about him. His positive nature is very infectious and because of him, I tend to think positively nowadays. I can just go on and on and on about him right now but I think I can do that later. I need a nap because I will be sending Fauzi off to Tekong. I want and need to send him off before he stays out of my sight for the next two or three weeks. Hopefully the impending work and other stuff will keep my mind off him and make the time pass by faster. hehehe... Till next time...
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