Sunday, August 22, 2004
I cannot believe that I am still very much awake right now. SHEESH!! My mind is telling me that I need to sleep but my body won't obey. Sigh, maybe I am thinking too much about someone right now.
we talked, I don't know how many times, for the whole day of Saturday. He kept calling me and it was a nice feeling to hear his voice each time. He sure is getting the hang of army life now and this one particular army song is stuck in his head!! Hahahaha!! Damn cute, Ain't he?? The last call was a bit heartrending because strangely, we just wouldn't want to put down the phone even though it was already 5 minutes after lights out. The longing for each other could be heard and felt so obviously. Sadly, we had to put down the phone and I had to end the call(although I didn't want to!!) after a couple of "goodnight... sleep tight... sweet dreams... i love you..." from me with "u too... u too... u too... i love you too..." from him and also after much of goodbyes which had sounded so painful to hear.
I laid on my bed with the phone beside me and I couldn't stop thinking of him. His shirt, which I had brought home after he had changed into a t-shirt I had brought him, still reeked of his smell and I couldn't help but take it down from my clothes shelf and take a long sniff of it. PSYCHOTIC aren't I?!??! I kept thinking about him and decided to SMS him(by then it was already 1plus am!!) with this:
"(not in exact words)Hi syg, juz had d sudden urge to tell u tt i luv u n miss u so much... *muacks* *big hug* 1.... 2.... 3.... 4!! i luv u so much! Hehehe..."
I kept on thinking about him until I couldn't sleep now. I do not know what has come over me now. I miss him so much and I keep playing memories of us together over and over again. So here I was, playing games on neopet.com when he replied at 4.57am.
"Hey...ur e first thing on my mind when i wake up...i love ya so very much n i miss ya so very badly..."
Touching message, isn't it?? With that I replied...
"syg,tt's wat i do 2.ur d last thing in my mind when i slp n d 1st thing i think of when i wk up.do tk care of urself syg.*hugz tite* luv ya..."
I guess I am still getting used to the fact that I am not spending my time with him anymore now. Before he got enlisted, we'd spend almost every single day and every single moment with each other and we'd never get bored. Having him beside me was the biggest comfort to my heart and my soul. Sigh, I am starting to miss him more than before. I am missing him like crazy!! But at least, I relish in the fact that I have someone to miss and to miss me. That makes me seriously happy. Hehehehe... Positive little chipper aren't I?? Hahahaha! All thanks to him.
I love him so much and it grows even deeper with each passing day. Wait till I get my hands on him the next time I see him!!! I'll hug him tight!! I'll jump on him and make him carry me while I kiss every part of his face, smothering him with my icky saliva!! That should do the trick into telling him that I've missed him so much eh??? Actions DO speak louder than words anyway! Hehehehe... Sheesh!!