Wednesday, August 11, 2004AAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! WHAT THE FARK!!!!
I had typed out such a long post but all of a sudden, the explorer just died on me!!!!!! FARK IT!! FARK IT!!!! AAARRRGGGHHHH!!! shits man... shits.... Yet again, I lost my post and each time it will be when I am typing out a very long post. FARK IT!!! hookay... Let me cool down.... WOOOOOOZAAAHHHHH!!!! Sigh.... Now have to start all over again. Sigh... *hunny knocks her head hard against the keyboard...*
after finally getting some needed sleep yesterday and waking up at 8pm, I called Fauzi up and found out he was on the way to the Esplanade to meet up with the rest of the Keris gang. He asked me whether I wanted to follow and seeing the chance of getting to see him again, of course I said yes! I immediately went took my shower and got ready as fast as possible as Fauzi was already waiting for me at my void deck. We then made our way there and boy, was it packed!!!! I think the amount of people there can easily beat those at the stadium that night!! Fauzi and I sat down on the grass area near the bridge towards the Esplanade Park and it felt as if we were having a picnic with Yanni sitting infront of me and Ana sitting beside me and eating together the rice and egg-meat dish I brought from home.
Soon after, the rest wanted to go off somewhere else but Fauzi, Wan Abg, Shasha and me went off to KTM and met up with Abg Kamal and Kak Ayu. After supper and long conversations, Kak Ayu sent Shasha home and sent Fauzi and I off to Liza's place. By the time we reached Liza's place, I was already feeling very very sleepy. There were Liza, her ex, Fahmy and his girlfriend, Lyssa lying down on mattresses that were laid out on the living room floor. The moment Fahmy had laid out another mattress for us, I went to change into Liza's shorts and went off to sleep but woke up to Liza vomiting loudly in the toilet and everyone else had gone to see how she was doing in the toilet. Knowing that her tummy is going to be empty, I decided to cook porridge that didn't really work out because I had poured a bit too much of soya sauce. Liza ate like 2 spoonfuls of the porridge due to the tummy upset and everybody got ready for bed at 5plus am. By the time Fauzi and I woke up, it was already 12plus pm. Well, he sure looks cute when he just got up from sleep. hehehehe... hung out for a while at Liza's place. Yanni and Bob came over and had our lunch of nasi briyani together. At around 6.30pm, we had to head off home while the rest made plans to go watch a movie in town.
Unfortunately for my sweetheart, he could only go home just to change as he had to go for his OMS practice at PA. When I got home, my brother wanted to buy dinner at KFC and so I followed him. While waiting in line to buy food, we were talking about bapoks and his friend when my brother suddenly got tapped on the shoulder by this Indian guy who was in line behind us. "Eh, you think I don't understand Malay is it???" my brother and I were taken aback for a while as we didn't even know what the hell he was talking about and so the both of us just said,"HUH???" loudly. "Hah! You think I don't know you are talking about my son right???(pointing to a small Indian boy sitting down at one of the tables in the KFC restaurant) PUKIMAK..." the moment I heard that, I could feel blood shoot up to my head!!! There we were minding our own business talking about bapoks we saw and there he was swearing at my brother thinking we were talking about his son whom we didn't even realize existed on this freaking world if he hadn't pointed it out... Literally!! sheesh!! What the fark was his problem, I shall never know. So I replied in a very calm tone,"we were talking about his friend..." And he interrupted."(pointing his finger again, now at me)you don't get involved... I am talking to him.." And man, I nearly wanted to punch the lights out of that stupid Indian goondu!!! Then my brother said,"we were talking about bapoks, ok...." And guess what that pundek(haiz!!!dah bagus i am not the type to swear around, that goondu had to make me for his stupidity and assumption!!) said!! "EH!! Don't provoke me ah!!" I was wishing I had my baseball bat with me so I can shove it up his arse!! But then I thought better.... Thinking maybe he just got up the wrong side of the bed and could not get any from his wife when he is in the mood to fuck, I just took my brother's arm, stared at him and said WHATEVER!!! in his face and turned to the front. I won't waste my time with uncivilized people like them. We just made sure we talked like as if nothing happened because I won't let a mama pundek like him ruin my time to get my dinner with my darling brother. after getting our food, I stared back at him while my brother said "Orang cakap lain, dia cakap lain..." to his face while walking off. sheesh!! An uncivilized cowardice like him will only pick on someone smaller and younger than him!! If he had truly understood Malay like he said he did, he would not have tried to pick a fight with a 15 year old BOY in the first place!! The moment he said "pukimak", I nearly blurted back "memang mak aku ada puki. kenapa?? mak kau takder kaper?!?!". thank goodness I held my anger in!! Or else, I could have easily asked the manager to handle him because he was the one causing disturbance for no apparent reason. No matter what, that still didn't deter me from having a great dinner of spicy and crispy KFC. YUM YUM!!!! I've not had such good food for SO long!!! To be honest, I rarely eat fast food but yet I am still fat!! sheesh!!
And so, since dinner I have been online until now. My darling is already fast a sleep right now. That poor thing is SO tired after SO many days and nights of going out with friends but most of the time with me ah. hehehehe. I guess he's trying to spend as much time with me as possible before he goes into NS next Tuesday. Sigh, I am SO going to miss him. I can only hope that he will miss me the way I will miss him and that when he comes back, he will still love me as he does now, if not more. This relationship is turning out great, alhamdullillah. He has been a wonderful boyfriend... Always making me laugh, making me smile, making me feel wanted, making me feel needed, making me feel comfortable not just with him but with myself too. No one has made me feel so at ease with my own body than him. In a way, he makes me feel normal about my own body and yet makes me feel special. hehehe.... Wonderful dude I got here eh? Ok ok.. I think I should stop going on and on and on about him. I can always save up for another time. For now, I think I should go and rest. I am getting so tired from typing again a whole new long post. sheesh!!
to my darling Fauzi, if you are reading this, I just want to let you know that I love you... With each passing moment I spend with you, I fall deeper in love with you and the strange thing is, you are there to catch me. Trust me, you are the first guy ever to do that... I cherish every memory we have spent with each other. I treasure every single hug and kiss I get from you. I appreciate every single gesture, smile and laughter you give me. You are who you are and I love you just for that... I am feeling happier than ever... Looking into your dark brown eyes easily lifts the sadness out of my heart... Now you know why I like to stare at you?? Hehehe... *muacks* *muacks* *muacks*
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