Wednesday, July 07, 2004
let me reminisce what happened the past two days...
MONDAY:
was soooooo damn late meeting the rest to go for the shoot!! haha.. *sorry again to Hannah, Hamzah n Khai!!* when we got to the place to do the shoot, it was raining and guess what we had to do?? We had put to put on aprons, one bun in one hand and a loaf of French bread in the other, and just swing it left and right in the air while the lead actor n actress danced in circles... AND WE HAD TO DO IT IN THE FREAKING RAIN IN OUR VERY OWN CLOTHES!!!! fark it. how unprofessional can this get? The rest didn't bring extra clothes to change into. Well, they didn't tell us that we had to bring extra clothes!! Thank goodness I brought extra clothes. I've always had a habit to bring extra clothes in case of emergency. haha, at least it came in handy that day. After much of 'dancing' in the damn freaking rain, we headed off to a small little bakery shop in Joo Chiat road. Dun really wish to indulge in more details abt that part except that we all had to do a lot "left, right, left, right" with our heads... Stupid all in all but fun in a way. Got to know that my cousin's fren was also working as one of the crew. Most probably will be seeing him again this Thursday for the next shoot and this time, it'll be at sentosa!!! Woo hoo.. *Hannah, we become bikini beach babes ah dis time k!!*
after all that, we headed off to city hall and bumped into Shayma. She was the one who was supposed to be in my role in Hujan. Somehow she didn't look too happy to see us though. Oh well, I went to change and the rest made their way to the esplanade while I went to meet Mujahid. thk goodness I only had to wait a few minutes cos I just don't like waiting at all, especially in a crowded place like city hall station. First thing I noticed about him was his eyes. He has such long eye lashes!! Darn pretty eyes! One thing he noticed was that we were wearing the same colours top and bottom!! haha.. I was wearing a white singlet and jeans and he was wearing a white long sleeved top with jeans. hehe.. a big coincidence on that ok? And so we made our way to the esplanade rooftop and talked about stuff. After some time, we went off to meet Hamzah, Khai, Yana, Niezam, my bro, Hannah and Afi. Missed Afi so much. Hung out with them for a while before Mujahid and I went off. We walked around to marina square, millenia walk, suntec city, one fullerton, lau pa sat before finally settling down at the esplanade. We did a lot of walking that's for sure!! haha... We sat down at the steps beside centro and talked because we couldn't go anywhere else with the rain pouring down. When the rain stopped, we decided to have supper at lau pa sat but not before he swept me off my feet.. literally!! haha! He wanted to see how heavy I was and I thought that he'd have a hard time carrying me. Goodness, the way he carried me was like as if I was light as a feather!! After supper, we walked all the way back to one Fullerton... Walking by the river... All the way to the esplanade. Settled ourselves down at a nice dry spot near the outdoor stage and talked some more. Thank goodness he is a very talkative guy. It was an easy task for the both of us to open up to each other because we were so comfortable with each other's presence. His favourite word is 'weird' while mine is 'rrrrriiiitttteeee...'. hehehe.. we even took some pics with his handphone camera. We were even dancing, jumping around, running here and there, him carrying me and threatening to throw me off to the river...I bet the other people chilling there were thinking that we were crazy!! When we finally decided to head on home, it was already 7plus am. Both of us were so damn tired by then but were still smiling. When we parted at the station, he even looked back to say goodbye again to me. How sweet can he be eh? A very eventful and memorable date.. to me at least..
when I got back home, I knew I was damn tired but I had to log on to the net first to talk to Iman before he was to go off that night for his overseas outdoor camp with his gf and NUS mates. We chat for a while before he logged off and I went off to sleep... That's all to my Monday...
TUESDAY:
I slept the whole day of Tuesday!! From 9am all the way to 1am!!! Goodness, I've never slept that long before!! I knew I was damn tired ah that's for sure. haha... tt's all to my Tuesday...
MY THOUGHTS:
Mujahid and I had contemplated on life, love, family, school, the sky, the moon, the buildings, the clouds, him, me, the future and etc that night... We had talked so much but yet felt as if there were still loads to discover. We had spent hours with each other but still felt like it wasn't enough. Somehow it was worth the wait of months of just talking to him on the phone and in the net. We have so much in common and there was definitely a connection. While sitting at the esplanade, he admitted to me that he liked me. haha, I just kept quiet and changed topic. He is definitely a very sweet, intelligent guy with a charming smile and very lovely eyes to boot. If a girl don't end up having a crush on him or liking him after knowing him, that girl must either be attached or lesbian!! But because of the fact that quite an amount of girls like him, somehow that turned me off on wanting to like him any further. Ok ok I admit I do like him because I've never met anyone like him before. I could easily read his mind and end his sentences and it didn't even need me to think!! It was very easy to talk to him and open my heart to him but after all that has happened to me in my whole entire life, my guard was definitely still up. The temptation to let loose and put my guard down was very strong but I just couldnt succumb to it. It might be a little unfair to him because he himself is quite a reserved guy and for him to reveal very personal stuff about himself to someone he has known only for months is a very new and scary thing for him. Oh well, I guess it'll take time. A lot of things takes time. If he's really that sincere about me, he'll let me take my own sweet time to get to know him and vice versa. So far, he's not rushing anything or whatsoever. So I guess that is a good thing. I don't want to get into a relationship yet for now because I am currently so busy with my own stuff, especially with Variasi. I am just going with the flow... Doesn't necessarily mean I will end up in a relationship with him. It could even be with anyone else. I am not putting hopes on anyone, not even Mujahid. I let things be.. If things happen, it'll happen and for a reason. *hunny leaves her fate and destiny in God's hands...*