Wednesday, June 23, 2004Right Here Waiting - Richard Marx
Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain
If I see you next to never
How can we say forever
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
I took for granted, all the times
That I thought would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now
Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' crazy
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
I wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end if I'm with you
I'll take the chance
Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' crazy
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
seeing him just now was something i have been yearning for but yet i didnt want it at the same time. knowing he is someone else's, i should not have asked him to accompany me. knowing very well that things will happen which already did happen now, i still turned to him. for ur info, the thing tt happenned was just a kiss... a kiss that has now evoked passion and emotions so incredible, so indescribable... and it's scary. scary on the part that maybe the both of us have found true love in each other and it is too good to be true.. scary on the part that he is with someone whom he knows he loves but could possibly not be IN love with... scary that the both of us are feeling something so new, so amazing, something we know no one else can make us feel like how we make each other feel... but because of his current commitment, he's unable to reciprocate even though he badly wants to. because of me and what happened, he is confused in his thoughts and in his feelings. i actually feel very bad and guilty for how things ended up now. i do not know about him but right now, i am just bearing the pain and hurt. to realise that i've feelings for him.. to realise i like him... to realise that i am falling in love with him.. very very very scary. maybe i am scared because of my previous experiences. somehow i think that i am a jinx in love.
i sound like a psychotic bitch, isnt it? i seriously do not know what is going on now. even i am confused. am i really falling for him? i cannot deny that the feelings is something i am totally very new to and it's so amazing and incredible. in the exchange of a kiss, i didnt know that it was going to complicate the matter even further. i dont mind if i am the one who is hurt in the end but right now, three people are hurt. sigh... i think i should walk out of his life and leave him be. let me suffer the brunt of it all, not them. i shall pray to God to clear them of all this trouble and let me suffer the consequences. they don't deserve this, especially when they are trying their best to stay together after 2 troubled months. sigh... *hunny leaves it all to God now..*