Tuesday, June 22, 2004
My heart has sunk to a deeper level..
To a level i've never been to...
And as he talks of possible regrets....
My heart sinks even more...
should i be happy for him or sad for myself? maybe i am doing both right now and i know i shouldnt be doing that but yet i am doing that. somehow he is feeling the same way that i am feeling now. things are getting more complicated no matter the brutal honesty we have with each other. our minds are honest with each other but the feelings.. the emotions involved are making it more confusing, more complex.
sigh.. one by one, it comes... it comes to bring me down... it comes to crush me.. but i've no other choice but to bring together all my strength and courage, and move on despite the immense pain and hurt... i have to move on... or else i'll crumble and die..
*oh god, give me the strength i need to pass through this test of yours...*