Saturday, June 26, 2004di dalam terang... gelap...
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i have got to get over him soon... i just have to.. the work is piling up and i need to get over him so i can get on with finishing up the work!!! since the incident, he has been ruling my mind. but how do u stop thinking of someone whom u noe is the right one for u? just being beside him feels right... talking to him feels right... hugging him feels right... even the kiss felt right... how do i put aside something so right?? like how it feels so right for me to be performing... like how it feels so right to be in Variasi... that is just how right it feels to be with him. i m not really sure if he feels the same way though. hey wat the?!?!?!? i seriously shudnt even be thinking of him considering he belongs to someone else!! wat the hell am i doing?? but.. i cant help myself.. he is such a good friend. conversations i have with him is always ever so entertaining and intellectually challenging. his company is always so comforting and ever so memorable. there is never a dull moment with him. sigh... i just want to get past this 'LOVE' phase, get over wit it and be back to just being normal good friends with him. this feelings thing is getting on my nerves right now. i hate to long for a guy whom i know i will never get. why try to reach for something so far away?? AAARGGGHHH!!! but the thought of him and me together feels so right.. it keeps crawling back each time i manage to push it out!! BAAAHHH!!! fark it man... fark it...
Love can make you happy but often it hurts
Love is only special when you give it to someone who is really worth it.
Heartbreaks lasts as long as you want it to and cuts as deep as you allow them to go
The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks
But to learn from them