Friday, June 11, 2004
been some time since i updated anything. been so freaking busy lately. doesnt feel like there is a break after Hujan. haha... everyone seems to be so busy with so much stuff, especially with this newly established events company. so many things have happened in such a short time. i guess i am already starting work as a personal assistant to one of the partners of that new events company and hamzah has told me that i will be going up for a dance instructor's course in august for 4 months. i am more excited about the course than anything else that is happening right now!! i can finally achieve my dream of becoming a professional dancer and a properly qualified instructor. things are getting better by the day but love-wise, i can only but laugh. weird how things have become like how it is now. weird, strange but really scary because i just think i am not ready for a fully committed relationship. i am finally realising that i am still too young to be in such a relationship where the guy wants to get married asap, wants to have a joint account with me when in fact, he has only known me for less den a week!!! the way the guy forced himself into my life seems to be a bit psychotic to me actually. just in a few days, he has already made me feel suffocated.. always wanting to meet me, always wanting to know where i go, where i am. even when i go toilet and i dun pick up the fone, he demands to noe wat i do in the toilet!!! wat kind of person asks his gf that kind of thing???? sigh... the more i talk about him, the more heavy my head feels.. it gives me a headache!! hahaha... stooopid! ah well, all i wanna do is just go with the flow.. if he cant accept it, den too bad!!
i miss Hujan so much. i would listen to 'Tinggalkan Diriku' by Siti Sarah everyday just because that song was used in Hujan for my solo dance. i will always remember the times we had training, rehearsals, pre-show preparation and finally the shows. the memories of Hujan shall stay with me for as long as i live!! the fact that Hujan was a major success was one thing, the other thing was how everyone has bonded in one way or another thru Hujan. hehe.. i will never exchange the experiences and memories of Hujan for the world!! Hujan shall live on forever even if it ended its last show last sunday....