Tuesday, June 01, 2004
ah so much stuff has happened... but one important thing happened.. let me talk about that first...
Mal and i finally got to talk two days earlier in MSN and i finally confessed everything to him.. n from there, we hav agreed to be frens now. to me, i'd rather have him as a fren den not hav him at all in my life. i am satisfied with that for now cuz i noe he n i are not ready at all for a relationship rite now after wat happened n plus considering he n i are going to be very bz wit our own stuff in the near future, dun think he n i will hav the time n energy to layan a gf/bf. i am more happy and at ease now. dunno how much of a relief he had given me after he agreed to be frens. sure i still do love him.. i still am very much in love wit him.. but it doesnt hurt as badly as before i didnt hav him in my life. and we met for a while just now.. the first time meeting after our break up and i've never more at ease, more at peace with myself den when i was with him, when he was beside me. the laughter, the acting, our sarcasm n jokes, his tickling, my pinching... hehehe... another memory of US etched in my mind till the d day i die. ok fine, he kissed me on my cheek.. n i kissed him on his cheek and before he went off, we hugged each other tight. the best part was when we finally kissed on the lips... but i stupidly pulled away before the kiss got deeper.. just feeling his lips on mine was already making me feel weak in the knees, melting my heart.. i didnt want to be sucked deeper into a realm of him no matter how much i really wanted to kiss him even deeper. i do feel a tinge bit of regret that the kiss didnt go any deeper but things like this takes time right?? when he went off, i just looked at him go till he was out of sight. and i was smiling, grinning from ear to ear all the way back home. just seeing him again has already been more than i asked for.. more den i ever expected... way more den i had ever hoped for.. wat else to get to kiss him again, to touch him again, to look into his eyes again??? sigh... i can just go on and on and on just about him.. hehe..
as for the Hujan drama production, we were surprised when we found out we got coverage from Warna, Ria and Perfect 10!!! ehehehe.. it was just so exciting!! i can only do my best in the shows this sat n sun.. soooo nervous!!! hehehe...