Friday, May 28, 2004
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i think i am seriously getting out of my mind. all i can ever think of when i am not having my drama or dance training is him.. who else but Haqmal. wat am i doing to myself??? AARRRGGGHHH!!! i miss those peaceful moments we spent together, just enjoying each other's embrace. i miss him making me laff. i remember so vividly the first time we met. to think we nvr even really talked to each other before. and we had so much fun considering it was the first time we met. ok my mind is filled with memories of US. y m i making myself miserable for? why do i still love him for? i donno... for nothing.. but for all i noe, i still love him. loving someone whom i know will nvr be mine again, someone i know i'll nvr see or talk to again. to think i tried to msg him just now. no surprise, he didnt reply. dun think i'd try to contact him again coz i know he wont bother to talk to me. like i said, wat the fuck am i doing to myself???? ah let it be. my heart belongs to him n let me be an old tramp. i dun want him to noe i still love him. i dunt want him to noe i m pining for him. call it ego.. call it pride... i just dont want him to noe anything. let me cry to myself. let me be with myself. as long as I know in my heart, i know i'll always love him. *tears rolling dwn hunny's eyes*
the drama i am in.. Hujan... came out in Manja Magazine and Today newspaper(24/5).. exciting!! even hisham hashim, the suria reporter, seems interested when the cast met him at causeway point just now. Afi was interviewed by him on a topic abt teenagers n parents. haha.. his face is goin to go up on TV! khekhe..
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