Sunday, May 02, 2004
as i think back on my past relationships, each n every one of them has made an impact in my life.
Isham helped a lot in establishing me to where i am now. without him, i wudnt have taken my o's. but it proves that no matter how long u are wit that person(we were together for 3 years), love is just not enough to sustain it. he still takes me for granted now. haha.. that guy has become even more egotistical than ever!!
Irwan was someone who seemed so serious with me but behind my back, he was backstabbing me. in short, he is a jerk, a player and a backstabber. haha...n to think that he complained to everybody he couldnt find someone who loves him for him... podah!!
Haqmal was the first one though that i felt so comfortable with. every moment with him was peaceful. he came into my life right after finding out Irwan's infidelity and he became my pillar of support. as i said once to him,he was my guardian angel. but as time passed by, i found out that he didnt have the initiative to call or message whenever he went out or something. countless times i became worried about him. until one part when i didnt hear any news from him for days on end and when i did, he gave me the reason that he was busy. my worry became anger because i felt as if he was not treating me as his girlfriend. dere was a miscommunication breakdown and now, we r officially apart. this is one relationship which i regret how it ended.
maybe i should just be single for now. nobody is ever serious in getting into a relationship with me anyway. who wud be??? i am a total psycho!!! haha.. ah well, sure i do still long for that lingering romance..that goofy happy love. am i picky? well i dunno. do i go for looks?? hmm i definitely dont considering i dont even have looks myself. do i go for money? well i dont need a guy to come and support me like my sugar daddy. hmm... the guy i dream of should be honest, sincere, thoughtful, sweet, loving, romantic, and wudnt hurt if he had a nice full set of lips and deep soulful, twinkling eyes... hhaha!! ah well, can only dream about it lah... is dere someone out there who can make my dream come true though?? somebody?? nobody??
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