Friday, April 23, 2004
wat's life? wat's love? wat are emotions? why do people need love? why is love painful almost all the time??? hmmm........ why am i talking about this so much? cos it concerns me on how the world is like right now. guys goes for looks, girls goes for money. but why are girls built to feel n be more aware of their emotions?? it is like a curse or something.... goes d same for periods...
i keep getting these compliments eg. that i am actually attractive and tt the person who has me is lucky. so much of boot licking n butt kissing just to earn the attention of a simple(ironically,i'm oso complicated) girl??? dere was dis guy who said, "badan lawar, muka pon manis, tetek pon bagus" n i gave him a good fucked up ticking off. compliments aint gonna work on me cos i dont really believe in the compliments i get. raging hormones aint gonna take 'em anywhere, except onto my bad side. to be honest, i'm actually a nerd at heart.... sum1 who can nvr mix around with the popular people just cos i'm deemed not cool enuf... sum1 who will never figure out d way to b hot or pretty enuf... sum1 who wishes tt she isnt a nerd at heart...
i used to put myself down even more n even worse actually. gained only a pathetic meagre amount of confidence when i broke up with Isham. so why do i keep putting myself down? just so i can keep my feet on the ground. sounds stupid but seems logical enuf to me... hmmm wat do u think??