Wednesday, April 07, 2004
sigh, it is raining so heavily these past few days n i think the rain just knows what i've been feeling the past few days..that's y it kept raining i guess. i've been feeling blue and so upset the past few days. i guess i over-reacted about Mal. maybe i shudnt have let go of my anger on him just like that, catching him off guard. gosh, i feel so bad for the argument last nite. REALLY BAD!! why did i let my pent up anger come over me like that?? i've always had good control of my temper and emotions..but all of a sudden, i dont have control. sigh, i feel like hitting my head against the wall or something. just who loves the feeling of regret after doing something so hurtful to someone who is so special?? sigh... i am feeling so sorry... shud i call him? shud i msg him?? he's online in MSN but he doesnt seem to be responding. does he still want to be with me now? i think not....