Wednesday, April 28, 2004
met up wit my cuzin yest nite for supper and u noe the first thing she said??? she said that i look thin and tt i've lost lots of weight... well for all i noe, i still feel the same fat me. hahaa.... ah well compliments come from here and there ever since i lost weight down to 54kg now. the heaviest i ever was at was 65kg and damn i hated it when i was that fat.... the blob around my waist... the fats around my arms... d strange thing tho, i lost weight but my boobs got bigger. really damn strange ya noe. went up frm cup A to B!! how big of a difference is tt??? hahha...
i've only got 3 weeks to totally memorise the whole script.... the whole dance... the whole songs for the whole damn drama production.... damn it... last minute thing... very last minute... stress ya noe!! cos the vips who r goin to come n watch this drama are actors frm suria, frm other theatres n sponsors.. juz who wudnt be feeling stressed if dey were in my position??? damn it....
Mal still doesnt wish to talk to me or watsoever. fine den.... it is his decision anyway. he doesnt wish to listen to my side of the story... i dun really wish to care anymore. he doesnt care or bother about me... so why should i right?? sigh... but it is going to be hard considering i do still love him. time heals all wounds eh?? at least i got the filming, the drama and the dance group to really fill my mind and not allow me to think about Mal. God, give me the strength... *hunny's chest aches in pain...*