Thursday, April 22, 2004
i think i should become an owl. only awake at night and sleeping by day. or a vampire. that'd be even more cool.
i feel like i should just let go and take things as it is. if a person cant change, might as well just accept it. can see that he is not really committed to be in a relationship. he's still young. he still wishes to go out there and achieve his dreams before he'd think seriously about a relationship. i should just take things easy. live n let live. unexpected things always happens when ur not on ur guard. Mal came into my life straight after breaking up with irwan. didnt expect things to happen with him but it did.
kept thinking the whole night about how difficult it is to be in a sincere and honest relationship.even more difficult is to find someone who loves u for who u r. my cuz kept complaining about her boyfriend who is stupid, egotistical, selfish and wont even go the extra mile for her after all that she has done for him. even i wonder why she is still with him...until she told me that she really wanted the relationship to work because she loves him.. even though he treats her so bad, she still loves him because she believes that he'll change. seriously, no guy will go the extra mile for someone they dont care about, no guy will change for any girl and no guy will bother about someone whom dey noe treats him as her king. am i a pessimist?? no, i'm a realist(if it is even word). wish i could shake her from her dream n force her to smell the roses(or the shit...whichever way goes).
i wish to go clubbing tonight. i just want to dance and dance and dance all the night through... well until 3 am at least cos tt's their closing time. i just want to dance away all the stress in my head. no one will be there for me so might as well be there for myself. right?? sigh.... *falling into a depressive mood again...*