Saturday, April 03, 2004
i think God has finally given me the chance to be happy. something great has just happened and i dun think i am ever going to let go of this opportunity.
juz now in the day, Mal sent me to temasek poly as i was to have my training there. since the very first moment i reached TP, i kept thinking about him and wondering, what if he was mine. every moment thruout, he was on my mind and i just couldnt stop thinking about him. when i got on the bus home from tamp, it was already near 12 am and i just couldnt keep in my thoughts n feelings anymore so i messaged him asking what he n i were and wat was it that our relationship is about. he messaged back, u noe wat, da days i've been wif u were brilliant, i din expect it to happen so fast, i'm not saying i dun like it,I'm afraid if ur feeling isnt love. by that time, i just had to find out if he really felt the same way as i do. he sent me another msg, U jus broke up wit ur fiance, i dun no if i'm jus a fling, or ur feelings are really true, i'm not doubting it tho, but i feel reali reali comfortable wit u... it was den he oso told me that he knew one of d dancers in my grp n tt dey went out for some time n in two of his msgs, he said sumtin tt rly made my heart jump in joy...But me and her were never attached ... For such a long time, suddenly i feel i wana be attached again .. and So what u think.? Do i deserve a chance to win ur heart ?. i juz had to ask him if he cud meet me cos dere were so many things i wanted to tell him in which he did and we sat on one of d benches at the playground behind my blk and talked about our thoughts and feelings towards each other. when it finally came down to the most important part, he was holding my hand and was asking me countless times if i really wanted to take d jump and be his girlfriend. silly sweet guy. hehehe. of course i agreed and it took some time for him to accept that i agreed, obvious frm his countless questions on whether i am sure or not. haha, when it did get to his head, he kissed my hand, my forehead and my left cheek.
hehehe....it was one of d most wonderful feelings ever. finally i've found someone who i m so comfortable with and wit whom i've no reservations in opening up my heart to. when i was feeling so depressed from what irwan did, here comes Mal to save me from an impending doom of depression. he was there, right when i needed someone so badly to talk to, to confide in, to comfort in....i suppose i shud be calling him my guardian angel. when tragedy striked, he came and rescued me...enlightening me with his jokes, life stories...making me laff and smile...helping me forget whatever pain and suffering just with his presense. being with him has made me so calm, so peaceful, so happy, so relieved. he leaves me smiling each time i see him. is it too good to be true?? if i am dreaming, i nvr want to wake up....
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