Thursday, March 04, 2004
wah alrdy wat time seh....now den i feel sleepy. wasnt feeling sleepy at all just now after a terrible argument with irwan. gosh, i had wanted to spring on him a surprise telling him i had cancelled going to my dance practice today just so dat i will be able to go out with him for the whole day but wat does he go and do?? he go and tells me before i can tell him my plan(which was way after he had finished work cos he wanted to reach home from work before talking to me) that he has agreed to help his fren and work somewhere for one day. in my head, i was like going," WHAT!!!!! AAARRRGGHHH!!!!". considering just how i feel about dancing, i actually told the leader that i am not coming just to spend da whole day with him! actually today is his off day. his off day was supposed to be last monday but was shifted to today cos he had to work on dat monday which was supposed to be us having a date dat day. and surprise surprise, he had actually asked me out on his monday off day but since da off day got shifted to thursday, he kind of forgot about it. to me, i thought it was postponed but to him, it was CANCELLED!!!! imagine my big disappointment and frustration!!! almost always, it is always me who asks to meet after his work on his work days but i'd always keep quiet when his off day comes cos i'd always be waiting for him to just ask ME out but then he'd just not even ask. he'd be doing something else and i'll be like," to think i always keep myself free for his off days but no invitation from him yet!! AAAARRRGGHH!!" gosh just talkinga bout this alrdy make me feel soooo frustrated that i can just cry!!! BAH!!! first he doesnt take the initiative to inform me of his whereabouts. now this?? sigh. doesnt he noe how to go about a proper relationship?? sure i understand dat he's always busy with work but helo?! it is the off days i am talking about here! sigh this is just sooo upsetting. and he can just easily say,"there's always other days.." so wat if there r other days?? i've to wait for a looong time for his another unpredictable off day. even then, will he ask me out again????? nooooooo, i dont think so. AAARRRRGGGHHH!!!! i need to go and sleep....
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