Sunday, March 28, 2004
for nearly two days now, he hasnt called or messaged me. wat do u think i should do? call him? msg him? meet him right at his doorstep? i think tt's da only possible way i can ever see him. should i be going out of my mind on this? i dont think so. i'm sick and tired of waiting on him like as if i got no mind of my own. i remember sending him a message on thursday morning telling him tt if he feels tt he want to meet me and is free enuf to do tt, he'll know what to do. i cannot be bothered anymore. seriously cannot be bothered. maybe leading a life of singlehood can turn out to be a good thing. i dont care if i dont get married. so what if i wont be fulfilling my dream of becoming a wife and mother?? no one really cares abt my dreams and my goals except me. i realise i can rely on no one but myself. too risky to fall in love nowadays. ppl now can act so convincingly on their emotions. it is easy to get fooled once u fall into the trap of love. i'm done with being treated like shit....like as if i am not worth their time or energy. i am sooooo done with that. i know i will definitely fall in and out of depression but like i said, who cares? no one is going to look out for me. no one...
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