Tuesday, March 02, 2004
everything is turning out ok now....finally had a confrontation wit him one night which i don really wanna go into details about because it will always stay in my mind...i'll nvr forget it. for all i know, he n i ended up sleeping and waking up in each other's arms, which is a very nice and warm feeling. imagine waking up to see ur loved one right beside u and in ur arms. i love him more and more each day. feelings getting stronger that it gets scary for a while because it is growing so fast. he is becoming an important part of my life and i wish for him to stay there for the rest of the life. at least now, we r getting to know each other and knowing how to deal with each other much better. da thing that bothers me a bit is him giving me money for me to spend on myself juz cos he's wrking and i'm not. i shud really get myself a permanent job soon. i cannot depend on him all the time. later on in about 12 hours time, i'm to go for my dance practice. well actually hafta go for selection of dancers considering i am the choreographer. hahha!! wee... :P first time dancing with the new group and i am already the new choreographer for the girl's side. amazing. hahaha. ah well, it's still lots of work. gotta see how the song goes, the beats and wat moves goes best wit it and still have to be up for improvements to go along with the guy's moves. if irwan comes to da practice after work, maybe it will give me a boost. sigh, my legs are still aching and so are my shoulders. i shud go and get it massaged before goin. sooo gonna miss my darling. :P