Monday, February 23, 2004
yesterday nite, i gave irwan an ultimatum. i asked him if it was best for me to juz leave him alone till he feels dat his life is more stable. i don see da point of me always hounding him if he himself is not ready to commit da basic fundamentals of a relationship. he doesnt talk to me abt his problems. if he cant even open up to me, wats da use of me in his life? juz for him to hav fun with? i dont even think he is ready to be in a relationship. in the beginning, i had asked him why he wanted to start a relationship with me and he answered saying that he was ready for a committed relationship and that i was one who was ready for it too.
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da whole day i didnt get a msg frm him...not even one. dat i didnt mind. so i juz msged him juz now asking him whether he had thought thru his decision. and guess wat he replied?? "ok....if this is the way that u wanted it to be, so be it then." my goodness, doesnt he even want to fight for the alleged love that he says he has for me??? i had asked him that question to test whether he'd fight for dis relationship but he's juz letting it go. i juz cannot believe this. this juz shows the one who is not ready for the relationship is him. oh goodness i juz hate it when i cry. is he soo willing to juz let it go juz like dat?? argh!!!!! i need to get out of here. i need to go somewhere n juz b by myself.... away frm these four walls...
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