Tuesday, February 24, 2004
when u r longing for someone, thinking about someone or waiting for someone who is juz so special in ur life, time passes by so slowly. i am wondering whether he is alrite...thinking about the times he and i spent together while waiting for him to call or message me. will he call tho? i don think so. i keep reading his messages in my hp, esp da one which he said "ok...if dats da way u want it, so be it den". pierces my heart each time. i had even written a poem for him...
If rainbows could be plucked from air,
Like threads be woven into hair.
Or stars be seized from midnight skies,
Varnished into sparkling eyes.
Else orchids fresh with morning dew,
It's sprinkled into scents so new.
Roughly I'd sketch a magic guy,
Warm and sensous is his smile.
Absoloutely beautiful his eyes would be.
Namely my sweetheart, you are he.
i wrote the poem in a way that the initials of every sentence spells something. seriously, i wish i cud dissipate into thin air rite now and then just let the wind take me wherever it wishes to. it just feels so terrible inside when i'm hung over someone who doesnt really bother about me. i used to hav this thinking, why bother about someone who doesnt bother about u?? i went by that motto for six months until i met irwan. from then on, i am just all about him and only him. i think i am going crazy....i've updated my blogger so many times in juz a few days and all about him....him...him... i wanna tear my hair out!! i'm getting sooo frustrated.... maybe i shud juz go and take a cold shower. RITE NOW..
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