Wednesday, February 11, 2004
sigh my poor nephew got admitted into hosp dis morning. i was over at my sis's place as my sis n her husband sent yusof to da hosp...had to take care of dem if dey ever wake up. well dey did at ard 3 plus am!!! hhaha...dey didnt want to go back to sleep so da 3 of us ended up watching preschool power vcds. hahahaha!!! juz sooo entertaining and educational!! didnt sleep for da whole day and nite....n goin to da hosp later wit my mom to see my nephew. he got like a lil bump growing on top of his head....real scary but hehehe yusof didnt even cry. juz give us dat bochap look whenever ppl try to run our hand over his head...like as if he's wondering wat da heck we r doing to his fine and little hair....hahaha!!supposed to meet yam later to go look for jobs but dont think i'm going. too worried abt yusof to b thinking abt goin for a job interview.
i miss irwan so much. i've not seen him since last friday and i think i'll only b able to see dis friday. sigh....dis is da longest period of time ever dat we've been apart. and to think he lives sooo near!! but he's so bz wit his wrk dat he's got hardly time for himself, let alone me! he is so tired nowadays especially now dat he's sick. he's down wit the flu and cough. i'm afraid dat he mite come down wit da fever soon. i pray dat he'll get better soon. i'm planning to make a surprise picnic for him dis sun..his only off day dis week. he said dat we're gonna b having a pre-valentine's day dinner at bugis's swensens after work and i sure do hope that nothing will come in btwn that plan!! i miss him terribly. i've been hungry for him since last thurs and to hang on till da nxt time i can pounce on him is going to be a very tough task!!! hahahaha!!
wat happened during da previous weekend is sure memorable. was toking n tokin wit yam n yan frm friday nite to saturday morning!!had our breakfast at mac den we made plans to go to beach rd later in da day. after goin to beach rd n yan had bought his sandals, we had our distasteful dinner dere but hey yan paid for it! hahaha so don rly care. after dat we went to da gathering dat didnt happen...all due to hyder's fault for not informing anyone dat da gathering was cancelled last minute. idiot him. was supposed to introduce shiran to sum girls during da gathering but da gathering didnt happen n shiran ended wrk late. since shiran was goin to b late, i juz told him to meet us at da esplanade in which he came even more late....an added forty minutes actually!! well not dat i minded. yam, yan and i were having too much fun laughing and making jokes....juz like da old times...juz only da three of us. shiran did come but he juz kept on trying to hold my hand, even doin dat in front of my cuz n yan when i was deliberately walking in front of dem at da funfair. i tot walkin in front of dem would deter him frm doing anything stupid but he still tried to even hold my waist!! such audacity don u think!irwan msged me while i was at da funfair...saying dat he was at da summit of da mount and dat he luvs me. isnt dat juz so sweet?? rite when i was wishing he was wit me instead of shiran, he sms me dat msg!! hehehe... alas yam n yan wanted to go home but i noe dat i couldnt go home wit dem until i explained to shiran....also cos he kept insisting dat i went home a bit later so dat he can spend some time wit me. dey took da bus and shiran n i proceeded to marina square to sit and talk. gosh he became even more daring and i juz had to tell him that he and i have to draw a line because he and i r just friends!! he kept asking me why and i kept telling him that i alrdy hav someone!! somehow he doesnt want to get dat into his head. he even told me to drop irwan and give him a chance!! real audacity he has!! i dono how many times i told him that i've a fiance whom i've serious feelings for. i juz cudnt take his pathetic beggings dat i juz told him dat he n i shud juz head home. i told him to juz go take his car n go straight home while i go n hail a cab. he juz said ok and boy was i relieved that he was finally gone!!! well i tot to myself, why not take dis time to juz walk alone and contemplate on the romantic mood dat was all around me that day?? hahaha...so i juz walked and walked all the way to boat quay...had to walk thru da esplanade and sooo many couples ard me....each time i'll juz pass by a couple hugging or holding hands or smooching....n each time i'll juz think of irwan, wishing he was rite beside me n den giivng me warm hugs...sigh. i only got back home at ard 1.10am in da morning. da mmt i rched hm, i juz slept and dreamt of him. i miss him soooo much....but does he feel da same way?? does he miss me as much as i miss him?? ah well i wont rly b able to find dat out cos he's so bz wit wrk and gets so tired dat we basically dont get to talk much. juz yest he juz slept on da fone while conferencing wit me, yan and yam. hahha...somehow he shudnt hav done dat..cos now i've got 2 other witnesses to back me up on da sleeping on da fone habit! hehehehe....poor thing him....i wish i cud do something for him...to make him feel better frm his flu and frm his wrkload....
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