Thursday, February 05, 2004
as i sit in front of the computer typing away trying to think of something to blog, i think back again of wat is going on in my life. i remember at one point planning to migrate to canada and get my life straightened there and all of a sudden, i have a fiance. weird how things come suddenly and pacing thru very fast. hav i made a mistake in making plans to marry him before getting to noe him thoroughly? i noe him as the person as he is now but i hav a very vague info abt his past and so if anyone was to ask me abt his background, i'd reciprocate wit a blank look across my face. i noe da past doesnt matter cos he is not not he was but it do bother me a bit that he doesnt want to talk abt his past. he insists so much that i dont bring up the topic abt his past. well i have no other choice but to agree rite? somehow i've a feeling dat after watever that has happened, he has changed a bit. seriously, he used to msg me before he went to wrk, while he is taking his break he'd call, while taking a smoke break he'd msg, when he juz finished wrk he'd call or msg.....now it is like a miracle if i get a msg frm him without me having to msg him first, let alone a call frm him. seriously, i have never lied to him before. not even once. for the first time, i am wit a person i seriously dont wish to strike up any lies wit. every single thing, i tell him. but the thing is, i have a feeling he is keeping things frm me. i donno wat...it can range frm feelings to thoughts to....juz ANYTHING! but juz a feeling he's keepin sumting frm me. shud i b worried? well goin frm wat i'm sayin, I AM WORRIED! another thing i'm worried abt is da bug bites all over my body!!! wat is up wit dat!!! it is scarring my skin....making me itch all over!! and it doesnt go away for days!! gosh it can be so damn tooting depressing!! AAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!!
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