Friday, January 16, 2004
wah so long alrdy not entered anything in here....so much has happened....like for example, I AM ENGAGED!!!! hehehehe.....engaged to someone so wonderful n loving. i am at one of my happiest points of my life. his name is irwan n i got to noe him thru a mutual fren(his fren of 10 yrs) and we didnt even talk much before we got together except for the usual hi and bye. juz suddenly one night(the morning of jan 2) he juz confessed his feelings for me and asked me to be his gf!!! imagine the shock on my face!! heeheh....but it was a nice shock. right at the point when i felt so depressed and lonely(i even had serious thoughts of becoming lesbian!!!), he comes into my life so suddenly that it took me some time to get used to the fact i hav someone in my life. but then before i could even comprehend that fact yet, he had asked me to b his fiance(tho not in a normal traditional way) and now im slowly accepting the fact that i hav a fiance!! hehehe....well it goes like this. the both of us were going for job interviews on a wednesday last week and he was filling up his job application. under emergency contacts, he asked me to fill up my info and so i did but when it came to under the relationship box, i asked him wat to fill it up as. he told me to juz fill it up as fiance.....and i was alrdy staring at him asking, FIANCE???? hehhehehe...... n he was so cool telling me to put dat. hahaha! since den, we hav regarded each other as tunang. the official thing tho will only happen in like 2 or 3 mths time. gosh i am so lucky to have him. he treats me like a princess and i swear no one has treated me like dat. juz into the second day of our relationship, he had alrdy given me a 24karat gold pendant which he bought way before we got together. i was so touched by his gesture that i actually felt bad cos i had nvr gotten a jewellery by anyone except for the usual silver. juz recently we went for a chalet that was held among our frens and on the last night of the chalet, i had fallen sick....feeling nauseous n dizzy. he kept by my side the whole night making sure i was kept warm and comfortable and he only slept for 2 hours while i slept like a baby. seriously nobody has ever done that for me, not even sham. he has proven to me juz how much he loves me and juz how much he is willing to sacrifice for me to keep me happy. when i had thanked him for taking care of me, he said that it was his job to do so. donno juz how long i hav been waiting for a guy to say dat to me!!! i hav found the man of my dreams. a caring, loving, sweet, gentle guy..... he has unlocked my heart n found his way in and it seems like he is going to stay there for good. for the first time, i feel so secure even tho we've yet to be financially stable. i don need him to be financially stable for him to win my heart over. his sincere care n love has won me over before i knew it!! he is for keeps for sure!!!
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