Wednesday, January 21, 2004
today is da one day dat i might not b able to see my sweetheart. i miss him sooooooo much but he has to wrk and ends late...thk god he only lives in sembawang. i hope he can come down to kk tonite so i can see him and hug him and kiss him....errr wat else ah?? ahhaha....but den another part of me hope he wont come down to kk so he wont get so tired. hmmm i actually donno lah!! wat i noe is dat i miss him terribly. i just to be in his arms n sleep away into dreamland....where i dream of him!! hahaha!! ah well, he came into my life so suddenly n now he has become an important part of my life. i finally hav a grip over my life now and i feel more stable and secure. but da mmt he talks abt da possibility of death n telling me to remember wat he told me n wat i promised him, my eyes will juz fill up wit tears. he means so much to me....i get so afraid juz at da tot of losing him. ah don wanna think abt it lah.....i get so upset.... well gotta go n get ready to meet yam at kk... something big is goin to happen..... sigh... n it's not a gd thing...