Tuesday, December 16, 2003
last weekend was a very memorable weekend. on friday nite, i was with ijad, fadly, man and abon and we were on a little rendevous around sembawang. i had to go on ijad's bike and the both of us just started talking and making jokes at each other....we were like so comfortable with each other's presence. we spent the whole nite together and we were all just hanging out at sembawang beach. the both of us were talking and talking while the rest was playing with the water. i didnt even go home that day and that morning, the rest of the gang had made plans for jln2 raya...ijad went home first to bathe and change and when he was ready, i was alrdy waiting for him under his block. the both of us made our way to yan's place as we had to wait for yam. she was bringing clothes for me to wear. nearly throughout the whole day, ijad n i were side by side like glue. he had even told me to keep his things in my bag. in the bus 187 to boon lay interchange, i sat on da very last row of seats beside ijad and in. i had taken off my specs so i can sleep but ijad took hold of my specs and held it for me. he said that the specs mite break so i let him hold it and he offered his shoulder for me to lie my head on. i did and before i could say anything, he had taken my hand n criss cross his arm with mine. other people could hav easily thought we were a couple but i was sleeping soundly soon enuf with him also doing the same. then in the bus 99 to shima's place, i had asked him to sit beside me so that i can lie my head on his shoulder to sleep. i wrapped my hands around his arm and he had his arm around himself on his tummy. i was half-asleep when my hand unwrapped frm his arm and fell onto his other hand. it was then he did something that made my heart jump and me nearly wake up. he took my hand and held it like as if he wouldnt let go. he even tightened his grip on my hand but i acted as if i was really asleep and made my hand lifeless. his touch sent electricity down my spine and to all over my body. his hand was so soft and gentle. but that moment was to last for a only a short time. we had arrived at boon lay interchange soon enuf. i met him again da next day at east coast with fadly, abon, man and im. when i arrived there, i felt tension and i realised that they had been teasing ijad about me and him. so i spent most of my time away from them and i sat on the water break. at first im came to me asking if i wanted to go home but i told him no...then abon came n persuaded me to join him, fadly and man. i told him no. then later came ijad persuading me to follow him back to grandcity. before i could say no, he had cracked a joke and i was laughing and i just had to say yes to him. in the end, i just followed him and im back to woodlands. im went back home first and ijad n i sat down at grandcity. it was an awkward moment at first but we finally got to talking and playing games; telling each other stupid stories and jokes. when abon and fadly arrived, i kept quiet and i gave ijad a msg asking him if he could accompany me sitting down at a nearby park. he said he can for a while but not at the park. so i asked him which place he had in mind..and he said dat i'll juz have to follow him. that nite, i did follow him and we ended up at seletar reservoir. it was such a beautiful sight and the breeze was amazing. sadly the only way there is either by car, motorbike or bicycle. there is no public transport in except for cabs. but i had a lovely time there. at first, it was awkward for us to b together just the two of us at such a place. we didnt even talk till he started tickling my toes with grass. hehehe...i tried to tickle his toes back but he seems to be unfazed by da grass against his toes and even ears. we ended up talking while massaging each other. he massaged my ankles as i massaged his at da same time. it was a nice sweet moment. he even proceeded to massaging my hands and arms and i did the same thing to him. there was even a point where his head and mine was just against each other so dat i can rest my neck when i had to tilt my head to massage his arm. his hand was going thru my hair and it was such a nice feeling. i eventually massaged his back and as i was massaging him, he nearly fell asleep so i let him lie down on my lap as i massage his head....when i finished doing so, he was alrdy sound asleep snoring away....hehehe...he looks so cute when doing so. one thing i couldnt help do when he was sleeping was run my fingers thru his hair. i was very tempted to carress his cheek but i stopped myself a mm short away from his cheek. i was even tempted to kiss his forehead. i just had no other choice but to stop myself from doing anything but just run my fingers thru his hair because for one main reason. he is not mine and i suppose he will never be. he makes me smile just by him smiling at me....he makes me laugh at the point dat i am sad....damn, i get so dreamy eyed each time i think about him...my heart pounds and my pulse quickens when i hear da mention of his name...i wish i am not falling for him....so that i can save myself from future disappointment and pain...but i just cannot stop myself....why?
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