Thursday, September 18, 2003
seems like a girl is interested in the guy i am in love with. she asked me to tell her things abt him and i know that i didnt hav the right to but i had posted a comment in his profile(which everyone can see) saying that i will always be attracted to him and that i miss him and stuff. today i went to dat comment page n guess what? that comment i posted was deleted. and just a couple of days ago he had sent me a virtual kiss. seriously what is he trying to do??? just why the fuck am i in love with a guy like him?? seriously, i hav never been the type to like let alone love someone who doesnt hav feelings for me. but this, i dont even know whether he do when he keep doing things that are confusing my head to the extent that i am very tempted to call him up and ask him to straighten things out. i need closure so badly so i can just move on with my life. god i cant take this any longer. my heart aches in pain and longs so much to be in his arms. why did my heart choose to love him?? there are so many other good guys who wishes to be with me but i am pushing them away because of him.....because i am in love with him.....with someone whom i think doesnt even want to be with me. he is leading me in so many directions that now i feel so lost and so lonely. i dont know which direction i am going towards.....what i am doing....why i am doing that....seems like so much pain that i can literally feel my chest in pain....n i feel like crying so badly....oh goodness, what is happening to me??!?!?