Wednesday, September 24, 2003
i wonder just how many times i have messaged him to ask him to just help me move on. as long as i do not get closure, my heart will never be able to open up to other people again and i wish so much to. just the thought of him with another girl makes me cringe in my seat. why wont he give me closure?? why does he want me to keep on making me suffer like this?? it just takes him to just tell me that he doesnt like me anymore and that is it. i am done and through with him. what is so hard about that???? he just have to tell me that he doesnt love me anymore and i am definitely moving on straight and fast!! i seriously want to love again but this is the only thing holding me back. people keep telling me to just move on....move on.....easier said than done....those who have been through this kind of situation will only understand just how i feel....just how stuck i am....just how lost i am.....i can only pray that my love for him will fade as each day passes by....i can only take this one step at a time....sigh....oh god, please help me get through this. love is too much for me to take at this point of my life. how i wish to abstain from it...how i wish my heart will.....