Monday, September 01, 2003
i met a guy recently last wednesday. i had a wonderful time with him. though the first couple of hours was kind of awkward for us, we finally let loose and had loads of laughs. we met at yishun and made our way to jalan kayu for his dinner(i was too full to eat anymore) and then went to the very end of east coast beach. we sat at the water break and i must say that it was quite romantic to sit under the stars and be talking to a nice guy like him. oh well, the situation i guess got a little further than i thought it will. we kissed twice on the water break with the sea surrounding us and with the stars shining ever so brightly. i have to admit, his lips is really soft!! haha. for the first time, he made me forget the guy i'm in love with. when i went out previously with other guys, i will always still have him in my mind but with the guy(ók his name is fadly), i completely forget him until i get home. i thought that i could finally move on but i know that fadly and i will still keep on dating because i think he knows that i am not ready for a relationship and he is not ready for one too considering he wishes to concentrate on his studies this year. but i am fine with it. he is wonderful to be with and he has a great body to boot! haha....but rite now, im back where i started i guess. guess who juz sent me virtual kisses?? no one else but the guy whom im in love with. i seriously dont know what he is trying to do to me. he wants me to move on but sends me kisses. it is as if he wishes to let go but cant let go. he is sending me such mixed signals. i wish to move on so badly but he is not giving me the closure that i need to move on. can you imagine?? just when i thought i am definitely starting to let go of my feelings for him, he does something and makes all those feelings come back. could someone tell me what is he trying to do???? ARGH!!!
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